Funny Thought

I had a funny thought tonight. I remember in high school, I used to agonize over my grades, SAT score, etc. "If I don't pass this physics test, I won't get a good grade, and then I won't get into a good college, and then I'll be a bagger at Walmart for the rest of my life."

So now to the funny thought... Now that I'm an adult, my grades in high school are the least of my worries. The fact that I got an A or a D in any class does not make my day go better.

Not to say I'm not thankful for what I learned in high school. I loved it, and I had amazing teachers that really taught me to think. That is the most important thing I carry with me today.

Also today, I got glimpses and feelings of happiness and contentment. That's kind of a big deal. I saw the snow on the mountains, and thought they were so beautiful. I am so thankful for my car with a working heater, and to be done with work for a few days. I am thankful for my family and the support and joy they give to me. I am thankful for the roof over my head. I am thankful for my job, the fact that I enjoy it, and that I have money in the bank. I am having moments of clarity, when fear doesn't control my thoughts, and I can let things be as they are.

Another thing today, I heard on NPR, a man talking about crappy feelings. He was saying that the feelings we have in the middle of change or a challenge in life are very motivating to make things happen. They are an important biological factor in the evolution of ourselves. When we're experiencing those feelings, it's a good thing because it means were shifting, and moving.

These are all disjointed thoughts, that I had real quick.